some tumblr went on a stabbing spree in canada last month

I hate not knowing what to do anymore. My mom thinks calling the police is too over the top for my problem. Like, I’m literally planning to go on a stabbing spree at school tomorrow. The hell am I meant to do? Just casually wait for it to happen? I’m not so sure that will go over too well with the police. Based on my research the best I can hope for is getting sent to jail for years and hoping for parole. Probably won’t happen. What I’d REALLY love is to die. But Canada apparently doesn’t have death sentences. Maybe I can get the police to shoot and kill me at the school when they show up. That would be nice. It feels strange to think of myself as a soon-to-be school stabber. I’d heard of school shooters, and always thought “that would never be me!”. Well, I’m not a shooter, but a stabber isn’t much better. I’ll continue to suffer until I can die. I’ll never be okay, I’m too far gone. All I want is to kill now. I’d actually like to have a gun to shoot. It would be easier to kill people with. But I guess a knife will do. I’ve tried to kill myself in the past to prevent this. I knew this would happen. I just knew something would go wrong. But I think it’s too late to prevent now. There’s nothing I can do. I’ll be hated for the rest of my life, by others and by myself. Nobody likes those who try to kill people. I wonder if this is what insanity is like. But insane people don’t know they’re insane, right? So I can’t be insane. Just frustrated and depressed. I never wanted this. I just wanted to be normal. But I don’t think I’ll get the chance now.
#Breannee post #murder #tw #trigger warning

So apparently death by jumping in front of a train isn’t that painful. You black out pretty fast, and once it hits there’s no going back. There’s a train track near where I live. Just something for me to consider if I don’t go through with the school stabbing on Tuesday (assuming I even go to school Tuesday)
#Breannee post #murder #tw #suicide

Barbarian Obama wrote:i like how rtcity's only thoughts on the matter are "why is tumblr still a thing"